It hurts me more than it makes me angry.

I'm going to miss Lii Sing A LOTTA! And Mr Jean. AND BERG OH MY GOD BERG! Have his picture in my phone.

No more MDM classes with these too. But I'll still be seeing a lot of my Habibti and my Baby in IDC and IB!

Baby is torturous much!

This's my boss telling his secretary that I won't be getting a raise, PFFT!

Hi.

It kind've breaks my heart to know that this semester has ended. Shit dude, where did the first half of the year go to? I have no idea, and I intend to find out.

From ever since I could remember, I've never been able to seize any moments and truly live it. I end up regretting not appreciating the small things that happen everyday, like having kinky talks in the morning with Steph and getting tortured by Keith, A&W's with Mel, dance classes with Hanisah, gossips with Aruna, having the privilege of listening and staring at a lecturer with blue eyes for one hour and a quarter each day, and being criticized in English class for having so-called grammar mistakes that were actually TYPO(s).

And the breaks in between?!?! Priceless. I know I'm being all melodramatic because I'll still be seeing most if not every single one of my friends next semester, but somehow I feel as if it won't be the same. But who knows, maybe that's a good thing. Still, I wish our routines would never have to be changed.

I've accomplished one thing I thought I could've never ever done in my wildest dreams.

100% ATTENDANCE FOR THE WHOLE OF THE FIRST SEMESTER MAN!

(Because you know, I practically never ever went to school during high school, especially form four and form five)

SO! My marks have been declining since the midterm, with the exception of English because it surprisingly went up(?) -of which I'm proud of. My maths declined 5 marks, while Econs declined 0.6 marks. PFFT! But you know, it's okay, as long as they're both still in the A range, because English is a confirmed B. If I manage to get an A, it would be an absolute miracle.

Anyways, I have this huge pet peeve.

It doesn't make me angry as much as it hurts me when people conclude that the marks I get are the way they are because of biasness of the lecturers, because I'm a so-called teacher's pet, because I'm a so-called ass kisser, because I'm a girl. If only you knew the extra miles I took just to hand in a decent assignment because I've no background in a particular subject what so ever, you would have THOUGHT HARD before you made any judgments. Sometimes I would sit and do my work for HOURS on end just to type a page. I bloody work for my marks, and if you ask me I bloody deserve them.

*Plus I remember, during the week of SPM results and Talent Night, I didn't study for this chapter test, and my results came out real bad, so what does that tell you? Is my lecturer's still biased now?*

I still don't get how most people think I work at bare minimal but still manage maximum marks. I DO NOT work at the bare minimum.