You make me forget how to breathe

You know how sometimes you're in-denial because you don't want to admit something to be true, because if you admit it, you'd have to live with that confession, thus actually allowing yourself to let unwanted feelings grow... feelings that you know are bullshit because you know how typical the scenarios are going to work out to be and with that, risking everything because what you have now is unbelievably perfect -exactly what you want, attention but not commitment, but then again, you find yourself transforming into this big giant green monster of jealousy every time you stock his Facebook page... then you find yourself looking at his pictures and saying to yourself "This is the exact opposite of what I want my other half to look like", and thinking about how significant his looks are -because Hanisah had learnt in Families class that one tends to look for a significant other that looks kind of like one's self, and then you find yourself doubting your feelings, and figuring out that...

OH MY GOD, that whole paragraph of shit and I realize that it is just infatuation that I am talking about. PSHHT.

This is why I love blogging. It makes me write things. Things I didn't even know I had in me. Things I finally conclude. Things that make me say to myself "YOU'RE GOOD, YOU'RE FINE! DON'T WORRY!"

Studied from 10 30 - 4 00 at the discussion area at the library in college with Jin, Hanisah, Nadelyn, Bianca,, Di Jion, Clare, Andrew, Jeniffer, Stephanie, Zaim and, I think that's it? It was fun. Everyone was asking EVERYONE questions. The funny thing was that I could answer everyone else's questions BUT mine.

Today's Sunday already. That means exam starts tomorrow. And I haven't started on my English. Because quite frankly, I don't know what to read up on on English. OH GODDDDDD. The good news was that my English percentage went up for the second half of the semester. But I have a feeling that it'll plunge down again after the exams. I've never hated English the way I hate it now. But it's the only subject I've learnt in college so far that allows me to apply everything I learnt, EVERYDAY. Seriously, ENG4U has changed me.

So OVER THE TOP.

I loved today : )