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how original, I know!

Tumblring

Eee everyone is using Tumblr. And I got myself a tumblr a long long long time ago, haha no la, about 3 months ago, but never used it, it was just there, because I thought it was cool. As in, the page and all those shiz and all and all and all la. That's the way the world works! Find new one, dump old one. Works among friends too! GASP! Anyhow, I am getting tired of my blogspot. I need new things. Since everything and anything tend to get really really old twice the speed these days. Sigh.

By the way this is my 491st post. BANYAK NYEAAAA.

you prolly know what I'm talking bout

Hello dear people. Yes, indeed, I've definitely lost my interest for blogging, but as soon as I hit the books, I'd be thinking about seribu satu things to blog about. Well, I must get it out of my system so I won't think of it - yet again.

At first when I heard the story about the slaughtered cow's head I'm like, what the hell man? You're dripping blood all over the place. And I didn't think much of it. Then I finally used my brain. Excuse my french but they really are a bunch of fucktards. How would you like it if the Hindu's started burning or ripping the Quran apart, or step on writings of Allah's name, or started to spray paint mosques and such? I bet you wouldn't like it THAT MUCH right?

And in conjunction with studying Agama for tomorrow's test of which I am so not ready for, they teach us how we should respect another religion, and make peace with their believers and preachers. After all, that is what the word Islam means, peace. By doing what you are doing, literally stepping on and spitting on another religion's sacred belief, is just, excuse my french, fucking retarded. You don't do that!

If you are the holy muslim you say you are, you'd probably know that they actually allowed churches to be built in muslim areas waaaaaaaaaay back then. They allowed it, and it was actually their area, where the non-muslims agreed to live under their ruling. And the permission was given out by the leader of that time. Who are YOU to say that it is YOUR area when you are not merely SOMEONE important or significant. Then again, who would want to look up to a bunch of idiots?

I used to go for tuition classes at SS15 near the mosque, it was Calson's home. And when the Azan is heard, we literally had to stop the class due to the loudness of the Azan. Being a muslim, I don't mind, but if I wasn't a muslim, I would definitely mind. But you don't see them cutting pages of the Quran and flowering them on to the road do you? And what the hell, Subang Jaya's residents are almost half if not majority, Chinese! They don't claim that Subang is THEIR area kan? It is really really embarassing.

Do not preach what you do not practice. This is really dissapointing. What is the world turning in to?

On a lighter note, HOMAIGAD I AM SO HAPPY. Yes despite the angry entry above but, I'M SO HAPPY. Sigh, even if your moodswings are beyond me, talking to you is like like, shoot ah I know it's all infatuation and stuff and it'll probably die down but I should seriously take it all in and live this moment. I am definitely NOT ready to leave school. I don't want to leave youuuuuuuuu!

im sad

I look so 'nice' in this picture, it's not even a good thing anymore. So not how I am! Went for buka puasa at Aunty Yan's house. It cannot get any better than our family gatherings. We find the most unorthodox things to talk about. And the food? I swear I've never eaten so much tempoyak in my life. It's so damn sedap. I finally get to puasa again tomorrow. Sigh! So much for the 2kgs I lost before I got that visit from that friend. Now I have to start losing them again. But no problemo?

School's starting. EXCITEDNYA! I can't wait to get my trials over and done with! I only have to go to school for three days next week and for another two the following week. After that, I'll have to attend full on 5 days of school on week three. Back to back trials are the shiz yo. I expect I'd know everything by then.

My problem is that, I expect too much of myself. When I expect to much of myself, I put a horse-load of pressure on my shoulders and get really really nervous. Ironically, Shan Chen tagged me as 'The Nervous One' on Facebook. I didn't know he knew me that well! So anyways, back to my grandmother story.

I've got to learn to chill. When I chill, I do better. And that's been proven. I think I was really chilled during PMR. Atleast not before PMR, just during. I keep telling myself that I still have time. And I still do. I pretty much believe so? It would be pretty horrible if I just gave up all hope and say I don't have time anymore!! So aslong as the clocks are still ticking, and SPM is not here yet, I still have time.

And um, due to current events (heh) I'm not ready to leave school yet.

Everyone says it doesn't make much difference once you leave school as you still see your friends, but no one really talks about how sad it actually is to not put on your school uniform or argue with your teachers, or race down the stairs for rehat (and get excited over waffles), or arrive in school seeing the one you have a crush on. OHHH so this is what it really is all about isn't it?

No, it really isn't. I hate going to school, I really do! But somedays, I'd just want nothing but to have a typical day at school, once again. Because I realize that, I'll never have that anymore. Even now. No one goes to school anymore. If we do, it'll only be 20 people in the class. Quiet, sad and, really really boring.

Let's face it, there won't be any boys throwing paper planes around in class when it comes to college!

feels like bedtime

Form One

Form Two

Lets pretend this is Form Three

Form Four

Form Four

Form Five

Einul (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAWAN!

I can't rememeber how many birthdays we've gone through, yeahp, we're getting so old. I can't even believe how long we've known each other, and hell yeah, through all the hair cuts man. Have a good one, and here's hoping to you checking your front gate. Check it!

shoes and shops

It's going to be a day packed with back to back activities. Tuition in the morning, followed by baju raya (of which I've reserved HEH) shopping with Leanne. I bought shoes before buying the baju. I hope they match, lagi lagi the shoes aren't black or white or gold or silver, yknow, a colour that can match to any other colour.

YEAH I BOUGHT MY SHOES. I was at Pyramid to buy some birthday presents (yeah man some as in more than one) for one person. If I like you, I'll buy you a present with alot of presents inside of it or buy you things for no reason whatsoever. If I don't like you, I don't waste my time and buy you, one present. Or I don't like you yet? ANYHOW, I like my shoes. Wee.

And and and it sucks how helium balloons aren't available anywhere near my house. I'm not going to freaking Ikano Power Center to geddit.

I miss someone. And I know who it is. It's the dude with the camera all the time. The dude Kak Lina makes fun of. The dude who texts me at 5 am in the morning untill it was time for me to go to school. The dude who I want to see in Aina-land tonight HAHAHA oh my god I swear I'm so lame, k bye

P/S: I need a life.

double post

Sorry for the double post, but I just thought of something.

Lately, I've been making up alibis and excuses for one person, let's call this person Bobby, blaming every each of Bobby's actions on what I think is going on in Bobby's life and how it's affecting how I get treated by Bobby. There was a phase where I got worked up over everything that Bobby did to upset me, and sometimes, I feel guilty. For feeling angry. Then when I don't do something that I was supposed to do for Bobby, I feel even more guilty. For putting my feelings ahead of Bobby's.

Then, I stopped venting, and just got used to whatever Bobby does to me. When my cousin asks me about Bobby, and when I tell her everything about Bobby, she has this shock mode on. Like she cannot believe that Bobby does those things. Different people, different point of views. Few of my friends who listens to me about Bobby don't say much anymore, because it's the same story over and over again. But they always have a shoulder for me when I need to cry. And believe me, I am actually really sad.

I've did everything on my part. Things got better, then things just, ended up being the same again. I've never expressed how truly sad I am. But maybe Bobby is sadder because of my selfish-self. Whenever I am not selfish, I end up getting hurt and my past flashes by infront of me. I still feel guilty being selfish. I don't know what to do.

I guess now things have shifted from one drama to another. Thankfully, the previous drama does not bother me anymore. Thank god for that. And thank god for my wonderful distraction.

simple smiles from you

puts the joy in me too

always smoke as we joke

of everyday's news

don't be sad should feel glad

that i'm making my dreams come true

don't you worry

there will be someone new

i am glad that it's you

i fell into

now stand next to me as i cry for help

sing next to me as i beg for a solitude
breathe next to me as i gasp for air
the love that brought me together
has let me down

once again

One thing I've learnt is that, and with that I promise myself not to get involve with tainted love(s) of a person I adore very much. It could make that person, not angry, not hurt, not annoyed, but simply sad without even he/she realizing it.

stand next to me

It has been a good three days. I haven't studied apart from my sessions with Mr Add Maths and Mr Physics. Yes I know, tuitions on weekends. How lovely. Anyhow, yes I've been resting this brain of mine. And what do you know, nice timing. My antibodies decided to rest too, so apart from having mindless to and fro texts with my little boi, I've been sneezing my head off and getting (what it feels like) whiplash(s). However, my non-holiday starts tomorrow, so I've got to start on Sejarah and Agama tomorrow as well.

YOU GUYS, TOMORROW (well today) ADA MISS UNIVERSE ON STAR WORLD! Watch it at night, which is the repeat, as waking up early to watch it, macam tak de feel, because you have to eat and bitch while watching it. So yes, can't do it when it's puasa month can you? Heh.

Bo Amir Iqram - Once Again

Bedroom Sanctuary, Attic Bangsar, Kuala Lumpur

I'm listening to Bo's EP, Gemini, it's so calming. I admit that most of the time I don't know what he's singing, because I guess his diction isn't that good yet but the music is really times a gajillion good. I love it. Abang Jaa dropped it off, well, I'd like to think because I'm not feeling well, but I'm certain it was because he wanted to show me a picture of a particular someone. Hmm, whichever one it is I still got my Bo cd. Happy!

The light bulb in my head just lighted up, how clever of me!

I took a pill today. And I swallowed it after the first gulp. I amaze myself. Man, now that I can take pills, I feel like swallowing every pill there is to prevent my nose from falling off. Dangerous much?

I feel like going to Pyramid tomorrow, as in today, since it's already 12 34 am, and since I still have money to get someone's present :O Of which I am cracking my skull of what to buy.

HOWEVA, I'VE FOUND MY BAJU RAYA.

By the way, nice going Aina. You had to screw that up by running out of credit right? But it was kind of funny. I did give out a clear warning though. I'm so cool ..not!

all my loving

They are, cool.

Na na na naaaa, na na na naaaaa na na na na naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

would you

Since I'm lonely and doomed to spinsterhood (so not happening) as my dad will only allow me to date at sixty (uhuh). And since I am currently emotionally, wait no, very emotional but emotionally unavailable, pick-me-ups are ESSENTIAL. And I got one yesterday.

Can't believe what happened today. Sigh.

Ohmylord, I'm coming down with something. Flu! I hope it's not the UHUK flu, If I have it then it sucks because I'll be having my teras subjects next next week! The papers I can actually do, Damn it damn it damn it. But I doubt it's UHUK flu, Because I'm just starting to feel under the weather after the assembly at school today. Then in that case I should do anything BUT doubt it's UHUK flu right? SCARY MARY.

And my phone isn't lonely tonight HIHIHI.